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Zach
Hey, how are you doing? If you're up for it, do you want to come over for chess and dinner with me and Oliver? We can talk about things, or not talk about them.

Katie
Hi, Katie. I just wanted to see if there's anything you need. I'm here for you, any time.

Oliver
Since I know you're not checking the spreadsheet: I have an overnight tomorrow. I'll miss you, Pietro. Love you.

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I'm sorry. I know how hard that is.

I know she's safe and very loved where she is, and that's what is most important.

You're right. I've clung to that before too.

Yeah, I don't know if this is in the cards for us, Scott.

If we do stay here, in this life. What do you want from it? What do you want life to be? What do you want to do? What are your goals?

In five years I hope to still be with your excellent company, sir!

Oliver!

Look, you asked a lot, okay? I know I want to be with you. I want to still be doing tattoos. I'm open on the other stuff. What are you picturing?

Okay, I can see how that would be overwhelming. I'm not really picturing anything. But I am thinking about the possibility that this life is the life we stay in, and that means that it's something I'm thinking about with fresh eyes. You know. Does being Scott change the way I want to live this life? Maybe, yes. Thinking about our children makes me think of those questions.

Are you saying you want a second chance?

I think I'm just saying that I'm seeing the possibilities of life differently.

You want to have my baby.

I didn't say that!

You want to marry me and give me children.

What if I do!

I don't know! I was really bad at fatherhood and worse at marriage!

Yes, and I was excellent at marriage.

I mean, you did have beautiful weddings.

Thank you, I'm so glad you enjoyed them.

I'm scared of failing again. Especially with you.

Me too. And I really don't mean to make those kinds of plans or demand them from you. But if we do stay here, I'm excited to build a future with you that makes us happy.

That we can agree on. I not sure what it looks like, except that it's with you.

All I know is I would want to do more good in the world, and spend more time with people I love.

Do good how?

I'm really not sure. I just don't know if I can keep doing a job that's fun but doesn't help anyone.